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Post by Deleted on Sept 8, 2017 7:45:14 GMT -7
Thanks both of you. Well ladystrong, I don't necessarily have a void in my life. I mean I have plenty of stuff that I strive for, although not as many as I would like. I am a 15 year old so there aren't as many options, especially when I don't know what I wanna do with my life right now. But you could be right. I'll have to think about it more though...
Thanks for answering rical. I do know this is a spiritual battle. Ephesians 6:12(?) I think says that we do not battle against the things of the world, but against the evil spirits, etc... That is why I use the term Satan, because I know all sin and rebellion started with him and I know he us the father of all lies. He is definitely a better fighter than me, and you're right, I should flee.
As for posting only when I fall, I do so because it helps if I confess my sin immediately after it happens. If I don't then I will get lazy and then "forget" about doing it. But I can try to post more anyways, if that is what you're trying to say...
Thanks y'all. I gotta keep my guard up today. Without God, I am nothing. But with God I have everything I need.
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Post by ladystrong on Sept 8, 2017 21:53:20 GMT -7
Didn't know you were so young! I commend you for taking this step early in your life. I know you don't feel like you're awesome when you fall, but know that your efforts and trials right now will not be in vain. You have a good future ahead of you and so much potential to impact those around you. I know my pastor struggled with similar issues at your age and in time and with accountability and honesty he was able to overcome the temptation. I am praying for you brother.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 10, 2017 12:07:06 GMT -7
Thank you ladystrong. Yeah, I guess I just have a good family and great Christian parents who have lead me from the beginning on how to live. Most kids my age don't have that, so they wait to look for help with their addictions later on in life when they are older. I am blessed to have good parents, so because of them, I recognized earlier on that I need serious help with my addiction.
Anyways, as for my check up on y'all. Everything is okay. I was tempted yesterday, and I began to slide into sin, but then I stepped back for a moment and actually thought. How does this sin benefit me? I always regret it, and the brief moment of pleasure is never worth it, and is also nothing compared to the joy I could have if I stayed pure. So long-story-short, I did NOT fall yesterday, *praise the Lord*.
Please continue to pray for my commitment. Regardless of how I feel, I have to stay on track and keep my eyes on God.
God is wonderful! Thanks y'all.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 11, 2017 9:04:10 GMT -7
Hey y'all. So today has been hard. I'm still struggling a lot today and the temptations just keep getting thrown at me. I know I need to resist and I haven't fallen just yet, but I am not sure how the rest of the day will play out. I just gotta pray and not put myself in stupid positions.
Anyways, thanks y'all. God can get me through this!
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Post by Deleted on Sept 12, 2017 7:12:11 GMT -7
I fell yet again yesterday night. I didn't put my whole heart into the fight against temptation. Honestly I didn't really seem to care what happened. I need to be alert always and I need to remind myself why I am fighting. Because when I lose focus, I fall.
I know God can and will get me through this. I just have to be patient. Thanks y'all
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Post by Deleted on Sept 14, 2017 9:07:05 GMT -7
I fell last night. The whole day yesterday was hard, and I fought, but I realize now my problem, or at least I'm actually giving this problem my time ti think about...
So I believe that the problem isn't that I can't do this, it's just that I won't do this. I haven't completely let go of my sin. I am not completely committed to fighting this, and I realize that I have to be able to give up everything if I am the succeed.
Please continue to pray. This will be a long fight, but I have to keep on. God has this and He has a plan. Thanks y'all
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Post by Deleted on Sept 15, 2017 9:06:03 GMT -7
I fell last night. The whole day yesterday was hard, and I fought, but I realize now my problem, or at least I'm actually giving this problem my time ti think about... So I believe that the problem isn't that I can't do this, it's just that I won't do this. I haven't completely let go of my sin. I am not completely committed to fighting this, and I realize that I have to be able to give up everything if I am the succeed. Please continue to pray. This will be a long fight, but I have to keep on. God has this and He has a plan. Thanks y'all You are learning and God is leading the way. Your statement above is a huge step. It takes some addicts a very long time to get to the point you are at. You can and will succeed if you keep pressing into God and keep pressing on. This is a huge victory on your part. Praise God and thank Him for opening your eyes to the truth.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 16, 2017 8:29:45 GMT -7
Thanks Amy. I guess it would be a huge step, but I still have a long way to go. Like you said, I just need to keep on pressing into God and like I've said countless times; Keep on fighting.
Anyways, (I use that word a lot don't I...?), anyways.... Ever since my last fall, things have been fairly well. I have to be extreme in the fight, and as hard as it is, I can see how fighting is worth it. Other than my addiction, things have been okay... So I think I mentioned to y'all that I have been depressed recently, and I just realized WHY, and I might've fixed it, (Technically God fixed it though). Ever since I started getting depressed, around that time God was leading me to tell a very good friend of mine something hard. I ignored him, and I believe that because of that, I have been very depressed, because deep down inside, I knew I had to tell my friend...
... Well just last night I finally relented, and messaged the friend, (I couldn't tell her in person). I got home, stressing out about my decision to tell her, and then in bed last night, everything clicked and I understood, and then I had peace. It's cool how God fits things together like that, and I now know that I made the right decision to tell her, no matter what happens to our good friendship thus far.
Thanks for your prayers! God works in mysterious ways, but His will is always what is best for us, so we must trust in Him.
Thanks
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Post by Will on Sept 16, 2017 15:51:45 GMT -7
Hey Noah, that's great about telling your friend! Whatever the thing was you had to tell her, the Holy Spirit is the Spirit of Truth, and being honest usually is a great start. I really know what its like to listen to the Holy Spirit and obey it, and also what it's like not to obey and suffer the consequences. He doesn't force himself on us because we are not robots, and I'm still working on being more aware of what the Holy Spirit really is speaking to me to do, it's sometimes really hard. Congrats on hearing Him and listening to Him! : )
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Post by Deleted on Sept 17, 2017 10:24:42 GMT -7
Thanks Will! Well so far the temptation has been there, but I'm fighting and I haven't fallen yet. I have to keep my eyes on Jesus and rely on His power, not my own. If I begin to get arrogant, and I start replying in myself to fight this sin, I will fall. The Lord is my strength, my power, my peace.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 18, 2017 8:35:57 GMT -7
Today is gonna be hard. The temptation us already strong and I'm struggling. I have to just remind myself of my goals, and what is truly important. I have to keep my eyes on God and find my strength in Him. I cannot fight today on my own, I must rely on God.
I know I don't WANT to fight. I know how easily I can just fall. But I know I MUST fight, for the greater good.
Thanks y'all. God is faithful.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 18, 2017 11:49:34 GMT -7
*sigh* I fell today. I let myself be left alone at my house with access to a device. I mean I fought for a while, but what I should've done was leave the house altogether for that period of time. Even throughout the struggle, I can still see some more progress in my walk. I know purity won't come immediately, and I just have to push through. Thanks for your prayers y'all.
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Post by Will on Sept 19, 2017 8:36:06 GMT -7
Keep going, Noah!
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Post by Deleted on Sept 20, 2017 14:40:16 GMT -7
Today is okay. I just have to keep focusing on the goal. I did fail yesterday as well though, so I have to be alert especially right now before I fall into a binge again. I know I can win this, I just have to rely on God and keep on fighting, even when I fall.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2017 10:28:35 GMT -7
So I can feel Satan tempting me to go on a MB and porn binge. He always does this after I fall, but by the grace of God I can see the truth. I almost fell in the bathroom earlier, and I would've, but at one point I stopped and kept on repeating in my head, "It is never worth it..." So I got up, t99k my shower and left. I know only God could've done that, so again, I have to keep relying on His power, not my own.
Thanks for your prayers, and just for being there y'all.
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