Post by Deleted on Jun 16, 2016 16:39:52 GMT -7
Hi, in case my username didn't give you a clue, my name's Ben. I have been struggling with a porn addiction since I was around 13, so about 10 years. I always knew that it was wrong, and every time I gave in to the temptation, I would feel great condemnation. Over time, the junk I was watching went from relatively ok (but still definitely wrong) to some extremely evil stuff. I'm not going into any more detail here.
I used to think that God was angry with me whenever I would give in, so I always beat myself up and repented, promising myself that I would never do it again. Which made me feel much worse the next time.
Recently, God has been speaking to me about His Grace, and how in Jesus there is no condemnation. Now, whenever I give in I thank God that Jesus paid the price for my deliverance, even if I've not yet seen it manifest!
I found this site, and decided to join because I want to make sure that my past will have minimal effect on my relationship with my future wife when God reveals her to me.
I used to think that God was angry with me whenever I would give in, so I always beat myself up and repented, promising myself that I would never do it again. Which made me feel much worse the next time.
Recently, God has been speaking to me about His Grace, and how in Jesus there is no condemnation. Now, whenever I give in I thank God that Jesus paid the price for my deliverance, even if I've not yet seen it manifest!
I found this site, and decided to join because I want to make sure that my past will have minimal effect on my relationship with my future wife when God reveals her to me.
