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Post by Deleted on Mar 23, 2016 13:49:57 GMT -7
Today is a great day for me. It's exactly two years of my freedom from P&M. I am free. Jesus is the cause of my freedom and healing. It's my salvation thank to His death. It's passover given to me.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 4, 2016 22:06:47 GMT -7
Jesus' words are the window through which you see the world of spirit.He is this world. Besides of Him is nothingness and sin.
Prayer is to stare out of the window . It's seeing in Him. Looking at Him you will notice in Truth all created things, and your brothers too.
Do not look at yourself but only at Him -This will heal you.4
During a prayer I experience what is written above. This seeing in Truth, not in falshood. And this healing. Jesus heals in an honest prayer in faith. When you feel urge or you're depressed, sad, afraid or you are in any other negative state, just pray ...and He will be healing you, soon you'll see all your inviroment in another way, your mindset will be changed.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 5, 2016 6:44:17 GMT -7
What you said is right and true. Prayer is our greatest weapon against temptation and sin. It heals, strengthens, guides, revitalizes and gives us hope.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 16, 2016 21:30:49 GMT -7
To relax from the hardships and external activity,no time is needed only Jesus. No time for you just time for Him, and the time is always available. Then He will give you rest,strength and joy to your body and soul.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 22, 2016 13:46:09 GMT -7
The Lord said:
The collapse begins within the soul since even a slight surrender discouragement or dissatisfaction begin the loss of internal balance. And who loses his balance, they fall. You must hold Me with all your strength, when your balance, your peace and your love in the heart are wobbling up.Because then the weakness already dominates you and you are powerless against it, even though you see it.
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Post by Deleted on May 3, 2016 13:24:07 GMT -7
,,Can I ask how long you have been cured?,,
It depends how to count it. According to one perspective 3 years and 2 months, according to the second one 2 years and 2 months.
,,People say there is no cure only management and 'once and addict, always an addict',,
I started to be addicted at the age of 11, so it's difficult for me to state what the cure is. But I hAve been feeling subjectively cured if I compare what urges I felt for 33 years of my addiction. I could remain sober for some weeks , a month, 3 months... twice even for one year but then it must have been management only because the life without the drug was for me very difficult. Often I dreamt about how would be to give in and indulge some big pleasure. Now it's differently. I feel as if I never had this addiction. No urges, no compulsion, no addiction, inner peace, I only like women, they are attractive for me.... but what healthy men don't feel that? I think it's just a natural drive. I have fully open internet and if I wanted I could watch P. even now but what for? to get addicted again, to get a slave, to hurt my wife, children, Jesus? I have my freedom again. I feel it. It's not that P. is neutral for me. I don't see it because it's a poison. A poison which seems to me sweet but simultaneously I'm afraid of it like of the death.
,,I believe Jesus can deliver completely , entirely and radically.,,
It seems to me He did so in my case with one exeption - it was not a sudden cure. It has been a constant every day cooperation with God's grace.
,,How long before the consquences to your marriage eased? (if they have),,
The consequences of using P and M eased after about 9 months as I rather knew that the Lord presented to me freedom. I can't say that we have no other problems. We have but I think they come from our sins, ununderstanding, family background - I grew up with an alcoholic father and so on... but the issues are for me outside of the addiction.
,,I cannot be freey affectionate yet, being 'locked' into trauma and hating being touched, even by my child!,,.
My wife was cured of the trauma as she said some years ago. It's not our problem now at all. Now I even sometimes forget that I was an addict. I have new life now. New identity. My course of life was changed.
You definitely need cure from God. Both.
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Post by Deleted on May 4, 2016 1:03:58 GMT -7
"Now it's differently. I feel as if I never had this addiction. No urges, no compulsion, no addiction, inner peace, I only like women, they are attractive for me.... but what healthy men don't feel that? I think it's just a natural drive. I have fully open internet and if I wanted I could watch P. even now but what for? to get addicted again, to get a slave, to hurt my wife, children, Jesus? I have my freedom again. I feel it. It's not that P. is neutral for me. I don't see it because it's a poison. A poison which seems to me sweet but simultaneously I'm afraid of it like of the death."
yes, this is exactly what i believe is possible. Thank you for sharing. of course it wouldnt be instant , because there is a lot of soul searching to be done and hard work looking at who you really are and what kind of man do you want to be? But the freedom you have found is a far greater pleasure than the pleasur of porn, which now holds more pain than pleasure.
i believed it was possible because i have the same freedom from bulimia which i was a slave to off and on for 17 years. Now, its like i never had it, i would not default to it during bad times, the thought of it has no appeal, I dont have to 'watch' myself in vulnerable times . I know from my experience for a fact that compulsive, self loathing, purging behaviour can be gone as far from east is from the west. I wasnt christian when i had that 'deliverance' - but I believe God gave me that gift to show me it is possible and that has what has kept me hanging in my marriage these past 8 years.
My husband claims the process , which has been long and painful, is complete , porn holds no tempation for him anymore, it cant, after the hell he experienced when we separated last year and the spiritual experiences he had at that time. I believe him in my spirit, and yet my body still reacts from the damaging experience of so much lying and shock after shock.......
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Post by Deleted on May 4, 2016 13:44:50 GMT -7
,,My husband claims the process , which has been long and painful, is complete , porn holds no tempation for him anymore,,
I wouldn't claim that my process is complete or that there are no temptations to do PMO. Even the Lord was tempted. Temptation is not anything bad, only the response to it can be bad or good. My process is not complete because my lifetime is not complete either. It's ever possible that I'll give up to PMO. Nobody can be sure therefore we must be vigilant and in constant prayer.
,,and yet my body still reacts from the damaging experience of so much lying and shock after shock.......,,
What would I do if I were you. When my feelings and body reacted so I would pray innerly to Jesus. At the moment when these reactions show their existence. How long would I pray? - Till the loss of all my ability to pray / complete loss of power, inability to think... / How would I pray? - Jesus rescue me, cure my body, emotion, mind, my past, set me free, do a miracle,give me trust in Your every Word... Jesus, Jesus, rescue, teach me how to pray.... I would pray with Psalms too, each word directed consciously to Jesus... and so on.
How many days? till deliverance. I don't believe Jesus could wait too long hearing such a contant prayer. Every time the bad body reaction would show up I would pray so. It's too serious. No time to lose or wait for. Please try, your next deliverace is standing at your door. Open it with an honest, trustful , constant prayer........
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Post by Deleted on May 5, 2016 1:23:59 GMT -7
to clarify, the temptation to M as both an outlet to physical frustration and emotional 'purging' is still there and one he is vigilant about, but not p. If you can only be tempted by the desires of your heart and you now have a new heart which does not delight in perversions and degradation, that is scriptural for the possibility for that to no longer be a temptation
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Post by Deleted on May 5, 2016 6:16:37 GMT -7
Elle, yes we have a new heart when we give it to Christ. However we still have the same body that is used to the habits we did in the past. Is it possible to be completely delivered from this sin? Yes. However we need to remain vigilant not to give it a way back in. It is too easy to revert to the old habits and not guarding ourselves from things that can trigger wrong thoughts is the way we slip and fall. Too much confidence in ourselves leaves us vulnerable. we have a sin nature even with the new heart and that sin nature will be with us until we meet our Lord. Just like with our bodies...if we don't keep training them, they will become weak and flabby...we must continue to train our hearts, souls and mind.
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Post by Deleted on May 5, 2016 13:57:59 GMT -7
Yes, the apostle Peter, he was so confident that he could give his life for the Lord and some hours later he rejected Him. Too many times I behaved like the apostle. Short after I was so confident I found myself in the pit. Constant prayer is the cure.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 11, 2016 14:38:47 GMT -7
I am still free and keeping my promises by The grace of God. I try to live in His presence.
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Post by KevinesKay on Aug 12, 2016 19:11:04 GMT -7
Hi Dan, It's nice to hear from again. Thanks for checking in.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 13, 2016 1:18:38 GMT -7
Praise the Lord! Thank you for letting us rejoice with you on God's faithfulness. So good to hear from you.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 25, 2017 15:07:03 GMT -7
Hi friends,
I have been 3 years and 3 months free from P. and M. I've got a new life.
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