Post by Deleted on Oct 30, 2014 4:16:09 GMT -7
Hello friends,
I am new not only to this site, but to online forums as well. I've been dealing with an addiction to porn and lust since my early pre-teens (Even while growing up in a divorced, but very church-based household).
I'm now twenty five, happily married, with two young children and one on the way. We manage to get though each day, one day at a time, but life throws us more curve balls than preferred or expected. We are a Christian-based home, increasingly improved tithers, and most of our friends are believers also. But we find ourselves struggling with the same battles. I believe my porn addiction and lust has a lot to do with our issues.
My wife is mostly a housewife with an on-again, off-again work career to help with finances occasionally. I work in the entertainment industry as a musician and up and coming actor. I've had some moderate success, but the "big opportunity" that will free our family of our financial woes hasn't come yet. This year has been pretty dry as far as consistent work. Plenty of auditioning has resulted in zero bookings, or even call-backs. I've also had to make many uncomfortable sacrifices for us to make ends meet that defeat the pursuit of such a career. Though I will do whatever necessary for my family, I found myself questioning God's reasoning for the annoying struggles. In my prayer this morning, I heard God tell me "There are some things you need to let go of if you want to experience me on a new level." I knew exactly what it was. After all of the sermons, clues, guilt, etc., I knew it was time to say goodbye to porn for good.
This is a difficult task...truth be told, I enjoy it. Porn, masturbation and lust have become parts of my daily life. But I can't walk on "both sides" of the street. It's God's way, or no way. In my research online, I found this site. I'm looking for encouragement from all of my brothers and sisters. In Jesus' name, this addiction can be defeated! Does anyone feel as if they're dreams/goals are being held up because of their addiction? Is this biblical?
I am new not only to this site, but to online forums as well. I've been dealing with an addiction to porn and lust since my early pre-teens (Even while growing up in a divorced, but very church-based household).
I'm now twenty five, happily married, with two young children and one on the way. We manage to get though each day, one day at a time, but life throws us more curve balls than preferred or expected. We are a Christian-based home, increasingly improved tithers, and most of our friends are believers also. But we find ourselves struggling with the same battles. I believe my porn addiction and lust has a lot to do with our issues.
My wife is mostly a housewife with an on-again, off-again work career to help with finances occasionally. I work in the entertainment industry as a musician and up and coming actor. I've had some moderate success, but the "big opportunity" that will free our family of our financial woes hasn't come yet. This year has been pretty dry as far as consistent work. Plenty of auditioning has resulted in zero bookings, or even call-backs. I've also had to make many uncomfortable sacrifices for us to make ends meet that defeat the pursuit of such a career. Though I will do whatever necessary for my family, I found myself questioning God's reasoning for the annoying struggles. In my prayer this morning, I heard God tell me "There are some things you need to let go of if you want to experience me on a new level." I knew exactly what it was. After all of the sermons, clues, guilt, etc., I knew it was time to say goodbye to porn for good.
This is a difficult task...truth be told, I enjoy it. Porn, masturbation and lust have become parts of my daily life. But I can't walk on "both sides" of the street. It's God's way, or no way. In my research online, I found this site. I'm looking for encouragement from all of my brothers and sisters. In Jesus' name, this addiction can be defeated! Does anyone feel as if they're dreams/goals are being held up because of their addiction? Is this biblical?