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Post by Deleted on Jul 28, 2014 6:16:35 GMT -7
Well, I have to start by saying... I just really really want to overcome my addictions... I'll keep it short, but I guess I was exposed to porn at a young age by a neighbourhood kid, then around the same time, abused by a babysitter (man). I kept the dirty secrets for years consuming porn and getting into promiscuous relationships with girls as a teen. I went through a long period of celibacy after i became a Christian, I was very dogmatic in my faith and religious, but eventually found myself back looking at porn... Since then I struggled with abstaining from it. after some years and various circumstances I found myself becoming actively promiscuous again even to the point that i've visited brothels around 4 times in the past 6 months while being promiscuous and consuming porn. A pregnancy scare, the threat of STDs, and worst of all the spiritual and moral loathing of my behaviour, while at the same time not loathing the experiences entirely. Really, I need to correct my behaviour because of how it effects my relationship with God. Not feeling so good right now - almost trapped, but as an otherwise accomplished person, I know I shouldn't give up, I know I need God's help through this, I just don't know the way forward
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Post by mike on Jul 29, 2014 4:50:54 GMT -7
Hi Dan -
Welcome. I've been where you are and can tell you there is hope.
The first step is doing what you just did - opening up to others with what you're going through. It sounds like you're not married at present? Do you have other men in your life that you're able to share with, or does it feel like you're alone in this?
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