Well, I have to start by saying... I just really really want to overcome my addictions... I'll keep it short, but I guess I was exposed to porn at a young age by a neighbourhood kid, then around the same time, abused by a babysitter (man). I kept the dirty secrets for years consuming porn and getting into promiscuous relationships with girls as a teen. I went through a long period of celibacy after i became a Christian, I was very dogmatic in my faith and religious, but eventually found myself back looking at porn... Since then I struggled with abstaining from it. after some years and various circumstances I found myself becoming actively promiscuous again even to the point that i've visited brothels around 4 times in the past 6 months while being promiscuous and consuming porn. A pregnancy scare, the threat of STDs, and worst of all the spiritual and moral loathing of my behaviour, while at the same time not loathing the experiences entirely. Really, I need to correct my behaviour because of how it effects my relationship with God. Not feeling so good right now - almost trapped, but as an otherwise accomplished person, I know I shouldn't give up, I know I need God's help through this, I just don't know the way forward
Welcome. I've been where you are and can tell you there is hope.
The first step is doing what you just did - opening up to others with what you're going through. It sounds like you're not married at present? Do you have other men in your life that you're able to share with, or does it feel like you're alone in this?
teetop: A quick note: I probably won't be around for a week or so as we pack and move. Sandy to her sisters and I, homelessness.
Sept 18, 2018 10:03:46 GMT -7
teetop: I'm still reading Mike Genung's book, The Wife's Heart, interesting.
Sept 18, 2018 10:11:55 GMT -7
teetop: The only problem I have with the e-version of his (Mike Genung)books is the inability of writing my notes on the sidelines nor note the specific line number.
Sept 18, 2018 14:49:40 GMT -7
Amymine712: I will be praying for your situation Tee
Sept 18, 2018 17:49:12 GMT -7
teetop: It seems that I have offended many here on Blazing Grace and to that end I am sorry.
Sept 22, 2018 8:39:07 GMT -7
teetop: Both requests have been acted on and I am sorry I've offended anyone here on Blazing Grace. Virgil
Sept 23, 2018 15:13:27 GMT -7
Amymine712: Tee, how are you doing?
Sept 23, 2018 15:15:52 GMT -7
teetop: To answer your question Amy, not so good today. Too many things rearing their ugly head all at once.
Oct 19, 2018 18:54:40 GMT -7
teetop: Pro 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. Pro 3:6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight. ]
Oct 19, 2018 19:17:44 GMT -7
ridat: Teach me Your way, ADONAI, that I may walk in Your truth. Give me an undivided heart to fear Your Name.
Nov 18, 2018 2:09:15 GMT -7
freerein: Wife of an addict here trying to gain wisdom.
Dec 2, 2018 21:58:15 GMT -7
Amymine712: Welcome freerein. I moved your thread to the wife's section so that the wives would be more likely to see it. You are welcome to post everywhere on the forums.
Dec 3, 2018 9:43:46 GMT -7
Will: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jan 3, 2019 4:57:58 GMT -7
Dominic M.: Thank you for bring the forums back.
Jan 9, 2019 21:07:52 GMT -7
Amymine712: I was surprised that they were down. Mike got them back up! So grateful!
Jan 10, 2019 4:35:27 GMT -7
Will: Yep thanks for bringing the forums back!
Jan 12, 2019 1:27:13 GMT -7
Dominic M.: Praying for us.
Jan 24, 2019 2:37:11 GMT -7
zat: Thank you guys for the approval. I hope to find the sharing platform here.
Jan 30, 2019 10:33:56 GMT -7
Amymine712: You are welcome! Feel free to start a thread and tells us about yourself.
Jan 31, 2019 3:43:48 GMT -7
Dominic M.: how is everyone out there?
Apr 30, 2019 17:14:37 GMT -7