Post by Deleted on Apr 26, 2012 16:47:14 GMT -7
Hello everyone,
My name is Ryan, and I've been struggling with an addiction to pornography now for many years, and I'm here for help, accountability, encouragement, and support, but I look forward to doing the same for someone else.
As for some background information, I grew up in a Christian home, and although I hated church and the various activities my parents made me do, I respected them and my grandparents for how they lived out a genuine relationship with Christ. Unfortunately, I was running with the wrong crowd in school. A "friend" of mine pulled out a pornographic magazine one day after class and showed it to me. I'd never seen anything like it, and from there the curiosity grew. It was a few years later that another friend asked me to youth group, and I decided to go. I kept going, and a few months later I gave my life to Christ. I was a freshman in high school at the time, and my life started to change. I still struggled with the sinful desire to lust and seek sexual gratification from the internet, and it's ensnared me ever since.
I've really have come a long way though. I'm 22 now, and I've found victory at various stages of my life since then, but I've been struggling more recently for many reasons. First, since I graduated from college last year, I'm living on my own for the first time, and that's been tough. Also, my dad is in the final stage of Parkinson's disease, and it's caused a lot of stress and anxiety in our family. And finally, I'm continuing my education as a full time student with a part time job tutoring, so the pressure on my shoulders breaks me down and makes me vulnerable temptation.
My goal is to seek Christ when I'm weak, rest on His shoulders, and allow Him to stand next to me because His yoke is light and His burden is easy.
I look forward to the next few months, and as my brothers and sisters in Christ, I'm keeping you all in my prayers.
Ryan
I need help and accountability,
My name is Ryan, and I've been struggling with an addiction to pornography now for many years, and I'm here for help, accountability, encouragement, and support, but I look forward to doing the same for someone else.
As for some background information, I grew up in a Christian home, and although I hated church and the various activities my parents made me do, I respected them and my grandparents for how they lived out a genuine relationship with Christ. Unfortunately, I was running with the wrong crowd in school. A "friend" of mine pulled out a pornographic magazine one day after class and showed it to me. I'd never seen anything like it, and from there the curiosity grew. It was a few years later that another friend asked me to youth group, and I decided to go. I kept going, and a few months later I gave my life to Christ. I was a freshman in high school at the time, and my life started to change. I still struggled with the sinful desire to lust and seek sexual gratification from the internet, and it's ensnared me ever since.
I've really have come a long way though. I'm 22 now, and I've found victory at various stages of my life since then, but I've been struggling more recently for many reasons. First, since I graduated from college last year, I'm living on my own for the first time, and that's been tough. Also, my dad is in the final stage of Parkinson's disease, and it's caused a lot of stress and anxiety in our family. And finally, I'm continuing my education as a full time student with a part time job tutoring, so the pressure on my shoulders breaks me down and makes me vulnerable temptation.
My goal is to seek Christ when I'm weak, rest on His shoulders, and allow Him to stand next to me because His yoke is light and His burden is easy.
I look forward to the next few months, and as my brothers and sisters in Christ, I'm keeping you all in my prayers.
Ryan
I need help and accountability,